A couple preliminary things: Yes, I’m all moved in to my new apartment and yes, ending my roommate-ship with Tim on Monday morning was sad (I’m gonna miss him). However, there’s something bigger going on with me right now that last week I never would’ve imagined would be taking place right now. God is doing some incredible things in my life right now.
Last Sunday during church God really convicted me of several things in my life and clearly called me to make a radical change in my relationship with Him this week. As soon as He brought the idea to mind I was like, “Yeah, I definitely have to do this, not only for my sake, but for the sake of my ministry and other people around me.” I became really excited about it, too!
Maybe sometime I’ll share the change I’ve made this week in my relationship with God, but right now it’s something private between me and Him that I’ll keep to myself. However, what’s happening as a result is amazing. I have no idea why I’ve never done this before. If it were possible I’d never stop!
For the first time in my life I think I know what 1 Thess 5:17 means when it says to “pray continually.” I never really thought that was practical due to normal every-day activity and responsibilities, but now that I’m experiencing it… wow. It really is possible to continually be in an attitude of prayer with God regardless of environment. Yesterday while at work I couldn’t wait to leave and come home and devote myself to more prayer. The coolest part is that when I start praying I even lose track of time. I look up at the clock thinking about 10 minutes has passed, but the clock indicates a whole hour. It’s really an incredible feeling of wanting nothing else but to pray, read scripture, and worship knowing that “man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God” (Matt. 4:4). I feel like I’m on a spiritual retreat right now.
Right at the very beginning of this new spiritual adventure God gave me a new life verse:
Job 1:1, “Job was a man who lived in Uz. He was honest inside and out, a man of his word, who was totally devoted to God and hated evil with a passion.”
That verse really summarizes that’s going on inside me this week. It is the passion of my heart. Job is the example I want and need to follow.
I realize I’m on a spiritual high right now and that the emotions of all this will come and go, but by God’s grace I pray the content of this intense relationship with Him will never become diluted or faded. It’s awesome to be serious with God and to see Him dealing with all sorts of areas in life. And this is only Tuesday! I’ve still got 4 more days to go! Woo hoo!!
Posted on September 13, 2005