Anxiety on the road
A lady was driving home one evening and cautiously approached an empty intersection. The light was green so she continued straight, but another driver ran his red light and plowed directly into the driver’s side of the lady’s car. Both drivers are injured, but the woman had neck, back and brain injuries. For weeks visited the doctor and ran expensive tests. On the way to each test, she was more cautious than ever to slow down at every intersection and look anxiously in both directions before passing through.
Some time later, it happened again: another car accident. This one wasn’t as severe as the first, but nonetheless the woman is flooded with thoughts and emotion. She even begins to think she is cursed, like a helpless victim. Her emotions are so hight that now, whenever someone drives her around town, she constantly gives warnings and instructions. She very alert and it effects everyone she comes into contact with because she can still hear the sounds of her previous crashes in her head every time she passes through an intersection.
Of course, this is understandable and would be true of everyone who goes through such an experience. Life delivered the driver a series of unfortunate events she needed to navigate.
The problem is that over time, the more anxiety she feels, the more it will effect her driving ability. Slowing at every intersection, for instance, is a great way to cause another accident. It’s not long before the fear of another accident causes another accident.
Anxiety in the pastor
A pastor working in a church one evening is sideswiped by a surprise board meeting in which he is asked to deal with some “issues.” The issues all happen to be problems with the pastor’s performance, none of which had been previously brought to his attention. There’s a lot of emotion in the room, which is not originating with the pastor but it’s directed toward the pastor. Some of what’s said is true, most is not based on reality. The pastor reacts and the situation melts down quickly.
The pastor is recovering from this situation from his previous church and questions whether he will ever pastor again. He thinks questions like, “What if the next church is like the last one?”
If course this is understandable and would be true of most people who go through such an experience.
The pastor takes another job, but now when he reads an email or attends a board meeting, he’s defensive. He wonders when it might happen again. Sometimes he feels an attack when there isn’t an attack. His anxiety fuels defensiveness. Maybe it’s for security, control, success or peace, but he’s determined to never relive the experience of his previous church.
The problem is that, over time, the higher the anxiety when he senses conflict coming (real or otherwise), the more likely conflict will occur. It’s not long before the gravitational pull of what we fear the most will draw us into the very things we obsess over.
Anxiety in the church
It’s important to realize that the pastor is not the only one prone to anxiety in the church. All people come from painful experiences in their past. They are wounded, sometimes by other pastors. They are on alert.
If everyone on the road is anxious in this way. It doesn’t make the roads safer, it makes the roads more treacherous. Certainly, there’s a place for defensive driving or simply competent driving, but everyone on the road driving anxiously would be devastating and increase accidents, not decrease them.
In the church, there are times when this becomes true. There are communities in which the anxiety level becomes so widespread, so normative, such a part of the DNA of the congregation that the anxiety becomes chronic. Where people live in fear, so they reject change. They play the victim and only blame others for their pain. The least mature voice is the person the community listens too. These hurt people gather themselves together to wallow in their pain.
Posted on June 23, 2011